Day 194: The Old Tape Playing in the Background

Right now I'm down to 2 containers in the motorhome. I'm pretty happy about that.

But I have about 10 that are partially full that went back to the cargo trailer until some future date when I need those things or I have time to get better organized.

The money I paid for that trailer was more than double what I had in mind to spend. But most people had already left for the summer by the time I started looking, so it was slim pickings.

I ended up with a really good deal on a trailer that was bigger than I was looking for, fancier than I needed, and only one year old.

Little did I realize, it was the perfect size for what I wanted to bring and also a great fit for the things I wanted to store.

Something smarter than me had my back and brought me the exact right trailer.

And if I decide to sell it, I can make money on it.

At first, all I could see was the money.

Now I can see the alignment.

That made me think about how often something is working out for us and we can't see it yet because we are focused on the one part that feels uncomfortable.

And sometimes what slows everything down is a situation or a person who hasn't been forgiven.

Even when we say we don't think about it.

It's there, like one of those old tapes playing in the background, taking up bandwidth.

This is another day where the reading I do from different mentors all comes together to tell pieces of the same story.

Today Wayne Dyer said:

Forgiveness is humanity's highest achievement because it shows true enlightenment in action. It shows that one is in touch with the energy of love.

That landed differently today.

Forgiveness is not pretending something didn't happen.

It is not saying everything was fine or handing someone else a free pass at our expense.

It is choosing not to keep giving our life force to the old story.

It doesn't cost us anything to look at someone with a little more grace. To consider what was going on in their life. Who they were at the time and what they may have been carrying.

Not to excuse everything, but to stop carrying the weight of it inside ourselves.

That's what frees us from so much angst and heartache.

Then the Teachings of Abraham said their teachings are designed to help you realign yourself with the Energy that is really You, and by doing that, you return to your natural joy.

That's what forgiveness does too. It helps us realign with the energy that is really us.

That's what this life is all about.

A Course in Miracles had a great message too.

"To all that speaks of terror, answer thus:

I will forgive, and this will disappear.

To every apprehension, every care and every form of suffering, repeat these selfsame words.

And then you hold the key that opens Heaven's gate."

Forgiveness clears the negativity that anger, blame, and holding a grudge bring to our doorstep.

When we let go, we hold the key to our own joy and happiness.

There are enough lessons we go through as part of our growth in life.

There is no reason to drag the baggage of unforgiven things with us when we don't have to.

The owner of the trailer initially posted it to answer my inquiry in a group, and I said I didn't need anything that big or new without ever asking the price.

I assumed it was more than I wanted to pay.

When he came back and told me what he was willing to sell it for, I felt like there was some divine intervention.

So I forgave him for convincing me to spend way more money. ;-)

And I was directed to what was perfectly aligned for me in that moment, even when I was saying, no thanks.

When I stopped focusing only on the money and started focusing on making my life easier, I could see the gift in it.

This trailer has made me very happy with how it's helped me so far.

Which makes me wonder how many things in life feel wrong at first only because we are looking at them through the smallest possible lens.

Forgiveness widens the lens.

It gives us back the energy we were using to keep the old story alive.

That ending ties the trailer, forgiveness, and alignment together.

Today's Gentle Practice

Think of one person or situation that still feels like an old tape playing in the background.

Ask yourself:

What energy am I still giving to this story?

Not to force forgiveness before you're ready.

Not to pretend it didn't matter.

Just to notice what it is costing you to keep carrying it.

See if you can give yourself one inch of grace today.

Not because they deserve it.

Because you deserve the freedom.

With you,

Lynn