Day 226: Don’t Look Over There
I don't even want to write to you about this topic because I don't want to see what it will bring up for me.
Because the truth is exactly what Louise Hay said today:
I am aware that what I do not want to change is exactly what I need to change the most.
When I read that, I could feel it in my stomach.
That feeling that says, don't look over there. You don't want to see that because you're not prepared to do anything about it.
And yet, we know this is true. We think it means we have to do some big emotional excavation. But we don't. Sometimes seeing it and acknowledging it ti is enough.
But that belief is why we work so hard to avoid looking.
And still, we do our best to not look.
Is there any kind of extra points for all the hard stuff I've already taken on and changed this year?
Because I've made/am making some big shifts already.
Is there a limit to how deeply we can look for the things clinging to those dark corners hoping not to be seen or challenged?
Because as long as they're in the far corners, they really aren't hurting anything are they?
I'd rather just sit here with my coffee and focus on the clouds going by or the birds.
And that's what we do.
We find distractions, emergencies, unexpected interruptions that we call into our lives.
Those are the things that pop up so we can say, "Will you look at the time. I don't know where this day went. I'll get to that tomorrow."
And then tomorrow never comes.
Crisis averted. Nothing to see here, as long as we don't look too close.
Sometimes we know what those things are we don't want to change, but feel like we need to.
Other times, it's just a feeling that as long as we don't open that door, we don't need to know.
What darkness are we expecting to find? Can it really be that bad?
Also hiding in those corners are all the things we can't forgive ourselves for, probably going back our entire lives.
Things that, if you were honest with yourself, were probably done with no bad intent. You were doing the best you could with the brain maturity, knowledge base, and life experience you had back then.
If it was a friend you love telling you about one of those things in their life, I bet you'd tell them to let it go.
Where we're so mercilessly hard on ourselves is that we judge the past with everything we know today.
That's so unfair. Especially if it's been years or decades.
That's one of the things I love about doing hypnotherapy. The person relaxes while I talk to their unconscious mind. And the shift occurs naturally.
The biggest reason I decided to become a hypnotherapist was because of the profound impact I feel it had with the breast cancer.
I think I fell asleep during my session and when I woke up there was such a lightness that I felt. And the emotional stranglehold my abuser had on my mind and the fear I still felt at the mention of his name a decade later, all gone. Forever.
It was like an easy pass. And it changed me profoundly.
So what corners don't I want to see now?
I don't know. Nothing came up while I was writing this.
So maybe it's just that it's ingrained in us to believe there is something still there, because it's not possible we could be happy, healthy humans with no deep dark things we hide from ourselves.
We get to choose what we focus on, what vibrational frequency we send out into the world and what it brings back to us.
There's an important distinction though.
Awareness is noticing what comes up and choosing how you want to respond.
Creative control is when you deliberately choose thoughts and feelings that feel good, and then from that place visualize what you want to come into your experience.
Then you have complete control over your emotional frequency and what you create in your life.
The point today may not be to go digging through every dark corner.
Maybe it's to simply notice the one place we don't want to look and ask why we think it will be so terrible to see it.
Because the thing we are avoiding may not be waiting to punish us.
It may be waiting for compassion. And compassion changes the whole frequency.
Today's Gentle Practice
Think about one place in your life you've been avoiding looking at.
Ask yourself:
What am I afraid will happen if I let myself see this clearly?
You don't have to fix it today.
You don't have to force a big revelation.
Just notice the fear with a little compassion, and remind yourself that seeing something clearly can be the first place relief begins.
With you,
Lynn
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